Nablopomo

I am going to try to keep this up. I will probably fail, but I can try. I am a day late but I did post yesterday. Either way it is just for me anyway, to get things moving again. I haven't blogged for months. This is actually a brand new blog for me, I am dissembling Jules in France - not that I am giving up on France, but it has been nearly 7 months since I cancelled my move to Paris. I still plan to do it, I talk about it every day, driving friends and family crazy but I know it will happen.

I gained some weight. Okay a LOT of weight. I had some disappointments, a meltdown and major drama a couple of years ago. I didn't deal with it and got sicker and sicker, my health went into the crapper and I barely even left my townhouse for over a year. This summer I decided that if I did not get myself together I was probably going to die. I don't want to die in fact that has never been part of my overall plan.

I made a lot of changes, I moved and left behind all of the negative issues that had been holding me back. Normally it is not a good idea to run away. I didn't run, I deliberately got up and changed my position. I admit I was terrified, I wasn't sure if I would sink or soar. I am soaring. Life is not perfect but so much better. I am healthy and focused. Seemed like a good time to start blogging again. Not about fat or health though, I don't want that to be what my life is about. I didn't cancel my trip to Paris because I was fat, I cancelled it because I was not healthy. I don't mind being fat in Paris, I have lots of clothes, I didn't want to die in Paris.

Comments

[Zazzy]

Hi Jules. I understand about needing to make changes and the negative energy that can hold us back. I haven't yet figured out how to get around that. Good luck to you on your journey.

[iJules]

Hi Zazzy, thank you, it has been a real party but I do think I have it figured out now. Small steps and letting go seems to be the key.